MiaFigureSkater66

Fucking bored. Someone should skype meee.. Note me if you wanna skype

i think its time. IM GOING FUCKING INSANE! I CANT STOP PAUGHING. I CANT STOP CRYING. FUCKING SEND ME TO A FUCKING MENTAL HOSPITAL THEY CANT DO SHIT! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! PUT ME IN A FUCKING STRAIGHT JACKET AND LOCK ME UP IN A ROOM ALL BY MYSELF HAHA! HAHAFSTUSGQUQGAUEHEHHDHFGJENWIAHQKAGDIDGHAJAHAHAHHAHAHQHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!

Normally, I'm the "happy go lucky" girl. The "energetic girl who has absolutely no problems and has a perfect life." Well, actually, no. I've actually really never had it easy. My own mother abandoned me when I was 3, my dads a druggie, and I've been through some hell. I've had abusive relationships. Like my last one, with Kevin, oh, he was SOO MEAN. He wanted me to do things for him that I didn't want to do. He wanted me to give him blowjobs, have sex with him, and all of this other stuff, but I never did ANY of it. Yes, I sent pics of me topless to him. Does it mean that I wanted to? No. I never wanted to. I just did it so he would stop. And stop, meaning, stop being suicidal on me. I honestly cared for him a LOT because he was my best friend. Well, was. Not anymore. Every night I talked him out of suicide. For MONTHS. I cried myself to sleep too much because I was worried that I would wake up finding out he was dead. One night, back in March, I OD'd. I survived, but I forgot everything. Words of advice, never OD. It just makes everything worse. And about four months ago, we had a huge fight and I just drank, and drank, and drank, until I passed out. I couldn't take it anymore. But I stayed. I was stupid for staying, but I stayed because 1. I cared about him; 2. I got too attached too fast; 3. He would use marriage as a way to have me stay with him. He bought me a promise ring, but I never went to get it, because I realized that I didn't want to waste my life with him. We broke up about two months ago, but that was because my aunt and uncle (people I live with, like mom and dad) found out. They saved me. Now I never talk to him.

And now, for my life outside of Kevin:

I am a Freshman, yeah I know, crazy things to hear from a freshman. But yes, I did all of that. Well, last year I was the "emo" kid. Everyone would call me emo and say bad things about me. I changed this year, hoping to be accepted, I started dressing like every other girl in the school. And you know what happens? I'm apperantly the slut of my group. I haven't even had sex yet or anything, all I did was send pics because I was forced to. And I'm the slut. Theres even girls who tittyfuck their boyfriends and I don't do shit. Just today, after my bio class, this kid named Anthony comes up to me and calls me a slut and whore and says I'm gonna get pregnant soon JUST because I have a boyfriend. He even goes to his friends and asks them if I'm gonna get pregnant soon and they agreed. And I'm not even planning to do shit. But I might as well, so I can satisfy everyone.

Well, welcome to my everyday life.

Hey I miss all of you guys!! D,: We all need to talk again XD

....just broke up with my bf of almost 5 months....it hurts..... :,(